Oh my baby girl.. you are not a baby anymore.. you are such a big girl.

All i can do now is guide you.. and always pray for God to always protect you, bless you and guide your way.

She grow up very fast in front of my eyes.. she asked so many questions..about my face..my skin….why i have red spot, what is that line near my eyes.. well yes she saw my pimple and wrinkle that reminded me to buy eye wrinkle cream. She just want to know more..and more..

My princess is just an ordinary curious little girl.

Beautiza

My washing machine is spinning dirty laundries… let it spin..let it clean…

The Kettle is boiling water.. let it boil..

I  need to fold a pile of  clean cloths.. aah.. leave it.. i will fold it.. let it.. let it be..

Arggh the floor is sticky.. haiya and a bit dirty.. will sweep and mop the floor.. i will use steam cleaners to do the job.. but not now.. let it be.. let it be…

I can hear my kids quarrel … ah let it be.. they will get over the fight..and play again.. let it be…

I will do all that later… What i need now.. is just a cup of coffee!

Why are you here? are you invited? why do you come anywhere?

Do you know that people scared of you? you are like some form of diseases…

We want to avoid you…. we want to ignore you…we hated you actually…yes we do.

so many questions i need to ask you …problems..

but i am afraid..you too..don’t know the answer… and that is why you came.

we want to ignore you.. push you away..

but we can’t hide..can’t run away from you…

you leave us with no choice.. we eventually have to accept you..

Problems, i sometimes realized there are reason for you to come.. in our life..

the reason that sometimes we never thought about..

after accepting you.. struggling the emotion.. the moment..

we becoming  more alert, awake..more conscious ..

Soon we realize that without you what is the meaning of life?

without you there are no challenge.. no obstacles.. no meaning

having had you.. once in a while..make us pause, stop and think

when we able to handle you.. you leave us alone.. but for sure you will be coming back

and after you come and go in our life.. we get stronger and wiser

you are part of our life… but please … problems.. don’t come to our life that often…

we need more joy, happiness rather than having you..i am sorry but its true

because if you come often i don’t need any weight loss products to slim down..

having you can make me lose my appetite especially if i think too much on how to handle you!

have to keep it to herself..

she asked me if she can let it go..to somebody else..

another ‘she’ we trusted..

i knew she can’t keep it.. its too deep..

but i just cant hide from her…

i know she hates me..but loves me at the same time..

she judge me..but hold me because who i am..

we are no more the girls wearing school girl costumes

yet we are still crazy at times..

we are no more girl thingy like hanna montana or raven...

we are more in ‘desperate housewives’..we are women

but we still keep secrets..hard to keep it in the diary sometimes..

need to spill it out..one chapter after another.. we let it out.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
enough
money within her control to move out
and rent a place of her own,
even if she never wants to or needs to…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
something
perfect to wear if the employer,
or date of her dreams
wants to see her in an hour..

A WOMAN SHOULD
HAVE .
a youth she’s content to leave behind

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
a past juicy
enough that she’s looking forward to
retelling it in her
old age….

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
one friend who
always makes her laugh.. and one who lets her cry…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
a good piece
of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her
family…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
eight
matching plates, wine glasses with stems,
and a recipe for
a meal,
that will make her guests feel honored…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
a feeling of
control over her destiny..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD
KNOW…
how to fall in love without losing herself..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
how to quit
a job,
break up with a lover,
and confront a friend
without;
ruining the friendship…

EVERY WOMAN
SHOULD KNOW…
when to try harder… and WHEN TO WALK
AWAY…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
that she can’t change the length of her calves,
the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
that her
childhood may not have been perfect…but it’s over…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
what she
would and wouldn’t do for love or more…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW….
how to live
alone… even if she doesn’t like it…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW.. .
whom she can trust,
whom she can’t,
and why she shouldn’t take it personally…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
where to
go…
be it to her best friend’s kitchen table..
or a
charming Inn in the woods…
when her soul needs
soothing…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
What she can and can’t accomplish in a day…
a month…and a year…