She who hold my secrets…
have to keep it to herself..
she asked me if she can let it go..to somebody else..
another ‘she’ we trusted..
i knew she can’t keep it.. its too deep..
but i just cant hide from her…
i know she hates me..but loves me at the same time..
she judge me..but hold me because who i am..
we are no more the girls wearing school girl costumes
yet we are still crazy at times..
we are no more girl thingy like hanna montana or raven...
we are more in ‘desperate housewives’..we are women
but we still keep secrets..hard to keep it in the diary sometimes..
need to spill it out..one chapter after another.. we let it out.
17 August 2009 my marriage will be 7th years!.. we are blessed with a son and a daughter… not sure if we will have family addition in the future… time will tell.. as for now … two are just nice.
I am not sure how we want to celebrate our wedding anniversary next week.. either dinner ..only me and husband..or the whole family.. still thinking… but we will celebrate for sure… just a simple dinner will do.
Another 3 years it will be our 10th Anniversary.. i am dreaming of orlando vacations with my family… i wish..i hope..i pray.. it will come true.
I just pray everyday that good Lord always be the third person in our marriage and in our family.. there always be temptation .. always looking for something missing… well nobody is perfect but we try to be the best.
In fairy tales.. when two person in love..got married.. it will be.. ‘happily ever after’…but in reality it will be… ‘learning ever after’.
This morning i read an interesting story in the newspaper and it touches my heart….
London : Inseparable in life and in death, that was what celebrated British conductor Sir Edward and Lady Downes epitomised.
It was, said their family, a very civilised way to die. The couple, a shared lifetime of personal and professional triumphs behind them, help hands for their final moments together before climbing on to separate beds to drink the clear liquid containing a fatal dose of barbiturates. Within 10 minutes, watched by their weeping family, they were dead.
The story of Edward, 85 and Joan Downes, 74 decided to end their lives after 54 happy years together by suicide rather then struggle with serious health problem… to me is a love story that has an happy ending even though they have choosen the wrong way to die..but if thats makes them happy… i hope God forgive them and my their souls rest in peace.
And this morning while me and my friend were having breakfast, we saw an old couple.. holding hands.. they both look so happy together… and wonder to myself… and have so many questions in my head.. and if i have the opportunity to interview them.. i would asked these few questions;
- how long have they been married?
- what was the biggest challenge?
- how they raise their children?
- did they ever cheated on their partner? hahaha…
if they were my neighbour.. i will keep on asking question … i am sure..soon enough they will call the long distance moving companies and move to somewhere else hahaha.
Well…that is marriage…a big word with big responsibilities that only handle by two different people.. how they work it out, how long it last..it all depends on them…my marriage are still long way to go.. and i trust God to work in my marriage.. amen.