BEAUTIZA

This is a bit late… but i post it anyway..we had a small and simple 3 in 1 celebration on the 30th Dec last year…. Xmas, New Year and Birthday party for staff born in November and December.

We even had exchange gifts..the rules must be RM10 and above… i got table cloth.. nice one..i was one of the luckiest..most of my friends got towel..hehe…

Can you imagine if somebody give a car as a gift definitely need to use good sam motorhome towing …

Here are some pics, courtesy of  my friend Maznah@mimi and Siti Dharizah.

posing with our gifts… eza, mimi, asiah..and me…guess who got the towel?

pose..pose..pose..

with our own..Siti Dharizah..

A few of the beautiful ladies in our office…in one department.

Of all pictures… i love this the best..i wouldn’t know what we were talking about.. gossip? no… we dont gossip…  must be something funny.. hehe.

It was a simple and wonderful celebration.. we had a great time..eating ..thats the best part.

Peace and Love to all,

Beautiza.

Do you think a comedian have great, fun, happy life? how about actors/actresses… are they on top of the world thinking of nothing… without problem?  Do they cry?  well.. they are just  human like you and me.. they perform to make us laugh.. happy…that’s their job.

I remember 10 years ago.. i received  at 12.00 midnight.. my friend (a guy) telling me he saw his girlfriend with someone else.. and he was crying.. damn.. that’s sucks big time.. but that was his feeling.. he can’t control his emotion.. so i just listened.. and well i can’t remember what advice i have given him.. i hope a good one.

To me.. hiding a feeling is difficult.. i have experience being so frustrated, betrayed but i need to have the smiling face.. the ‘happy go lucky attitude’.. i got to hide the feeling.. oh man.. it’s hard to do.. but i did it.. i feel like crying..but i keep on smiling.. hiding the feeling.. the emotion.. keeping it inside of me.. 5 minutes seems to be like hours.. and i continued for days.. until i really got the feeling out of me.

A friend once told me, she felt so down, upset, betrayed.. i told her to calm down, take it easy..  and just to let it out.. ‘cry’..  indeed she told me..while writing to me via YM she was crying out loud.. (she was at home) i can’t imagine she cried in the office.

Mistakes through my experiences taught me the true meaning of life.. once you feel the betrayal and hurts, you learn to go on… but i never regret.. that become a journal in my life.

We cries.. when we are sad.. in grief..broken heart.. to let our emotion out.. its alright to cry.. we cry when we happy.. don’t we?   So if you feel like crying.. let it out.. don’t keep it inside…

If somebody betrayed you.. you just imagine.. your tears represent your sadness, your hurts, how much you hate the person.. and after you have done with your crying.. you will feel ‘aaah what a relief‘..gone all the sadness and move on with your life.. and try to accept things in a positive view… to remain your beauty from inside is to accept.. and to clear all source of negatives energy.. don’t let hatred get into you.

Okay.. enough with the crying things.. give me plasma tvs and make my day… give me a jokes to brighten my day!

Hehe.. i simply put ‘Desperate Best Friends’…hehe..because  we were so desperate to meet each other….our best friend Cay is working in KL the only time we can meet her is when she came back to KK for holiday that is in December.. or whenever we go to KL but usually we were busy with family.   She was here for a two days seminar.. came down alone..so we took advantage to meet everybody last Friday(30 Oct 09).

We called each other set time and place…we managed to get together without our best friend Flora who are now working in Brunei..never seen or get in touch with her..mmm..i can’t remember when.

The five of us have been together since 1993 taking our  Diploma in Secretarial Science Students in ITM Menggatal..

Look at this picture..taken during our presentation..if i’m not mistaken this is in 1995.

can you spot which one is me? hehe.. from left.. shirley, flora, cay, felecity and collete.

This picture below.. im not sure when … i assume its around 1998 0r 1999 .. im just guessing..can’t remember.. but we still hang out after we leave ITM.

enjoying our single ladies moments…hehe

THE BEFORE

And this picture below..taken recently.. without our big sister..Flora.. Fele had checked in the directory submissions and managed to get her email.. but our Flora is a busy woman ..busy .. as before.

Can you spot the different.. before and after.. hehe.. who still mantain.. and who terlebih? oops again.

THE AFTER

The mummies.. yaii.. still like before.. talk loud.. lupa diri whenever we meet up.

Colette, the steady..happy go lucky..smile always.. and laugh a lot.. and Cay… now she the mama type.. hehe.. she become our big sister..

me… what can i say about me.. u ask them.. they know about me sometimes more than i do.. and Fele….lovable.. smile always.. concern sister.. sensitive a bit.. but dont mess with her.. hehe

We still mantain our friendship.. until now we still keep and share our secret..oops.. the secret part.. if i die.. ask them..they hold my secret..but they don’t have my money.. but if i strike jackpot for sure these ladies will get their part from me.

Friendship will last forever… she listen, she speak up, she fight, she make up.. if i don’t know what to do.. i know who i can talk to.. my Best friends! Love you ladies.. God Bless!

My daughter, Chrissa  love to watch Barbie..mmm not only her.. i love Barbie..whenever we..girls imagine of Barbie..we imagine a perfect young lady.. beautiful, humble, sweet.. perfect skin without using any acne treatment, perfect hair.. everything a girl wish for.

Chrissa loves to listen to Barbie’s songs… her favorites are these two songs…from Barbie and The Diamond Castle.  I love the story too.. its all about friendship.

Whenever she hear this songs..she will sing along.. and its her lullaby.. her daddy will play this song from his hp… we will hear her humming to the song.. and in a while…zzzzz..she sleep like a baby… sweet dream in the Diamond Castle…dancing with Barbie and friends.

Our family fall in love with this song.. and it becoming our theme song… check out this video.. sing along with it.. you will know why we love it so much.

Enjoy this video by Rev. Jeremy Haft feat Katherine McPhee.. ‘Connected’.

This beautiful song not only for best friends who have each other but also  for family.. every member of a family..we need each other…. we protect each other… we listen to each other.. we are there for each other.. we are connected!

Who are you? why do they call you ‘problems’?

Why are you here? are you invited? why do you come anywhere?

Do you know that people scared of you? you are like some form of diseases…

We want to avoid you…. we want to ignore you…we hated you actually…yes we do.

so many questions i need to ask you …problems..

but i am afraid..you too..don’t know the answer… and that is why you came.

we want to ignore you.. push you away..

but we can’t hide..can’t run away from you…

you leave us with no choice.. we eventually have to accept you..

Problems, i sometimes realized there are reason for you to come.. in our life..

the reason that sometimes we never thought about..

after accepting you.. struggling the emotion.. the moment..

we becoming  more alert, awake..more conscious ..

Soon we realize that without you what is the meaning of life?

without you there are no challenge.. no obstacles.. no meaning

having had you.. once in a while..make us pause, stop and think

when we able to handle you.. you leave us alone.. but for sure you will be coming back

and after you come and go in our life.. we get stronger and wiser

you are part of our life… but please … problems.. don’t come to our life that often…

we need more joy, happiness rather than having you..i am sorry but its true

because if you come often i don’t need any weight loss products to slim down..

having you can make me lose my appetite especially if i think too much on how to handle you!

What a Hari Raya this year.. hubby got to work.. i am all alone with kids..its being 4 days being fully housewife.. haha.. tired, fun, interesting at the same time.. try to do practical on  my theory on how to handle kids…. few tips succeed but need to try again..again..and again… but need to change the tactic or else they will know its just a trick.. phew.. anyway… what else a mother could asked for now… is rest!

The only house i managed to visit this year is at Anies… another blogger who became my friend.. ..my children were excited.. going for Hari Raya.. Chrissa wanted to wear her punjab suit.. sempat ambil gambar before going..hehe.

Its easy to find her house.. after going up and down the hill.. ..situated at a peaceful place…. can still feel the kampung.. nice.. if i have a las vegas deals for sure i build my house as soon as possible.. haha there i go with my daydreaming again.   That what i called a home sweet home..i personally like the house design.. simple, cosy..  have the warm welcome.. not only the house but the garden.. it is so inviting..great job Anies and hubby!

We had great time visiting Anies and family… thanks guys… well my kids were enjoying themselves…. after spending hour there..we visited CTMall.. as usual Sean and Chrissa wants to buy books in Popular.

Anies and Shirley in action…hehe.

The girls.. another girl not in the pic.. and sean..busy playing…

I always imagine to build a house soon.. i will have a garden at the backyard and also a swimming pool.. i will get a patio chairs because i know for sure i will have relatives and friends hanging out there.

What usually we talk about when we meet our relatives and friends? well mostly updating about family thingy.. lol.. can’t avoid gossip can’t we.. but when we talk about other people we will say.. ‘this is not gossip..its a fact’.. come on.. where is that come from.. well that is to make us not to believe what we are actually talking about but at the same time get confirmation.. as long as you keep it there.. i guess its just chat.. unless you spread it out.  Have you ever heard this.. ?.. ‘don’t tell anybody ah.. please keep it to yourself’… translation.. ‘jangan kasitau orang ah.. sya kasih tau kau saja kama ni’… haha.. i heard it so many times.. and whenever i heard that.. i will asked.. how many people you told that.. haha..for the fun of it..seriously i am sure.. i am not the only one… but well maybe its true.. who knows.

Rumors or gossip spread faster than media electronic..we got internet and handphone.. what else do you need to spread words..  ‘twitter’..’facebook’..’yahoo messenger’... just type whatever..and people will believe you but please dont do that.. dont start a rumor or gossip.. i am just giving example.  We can’t stop overhearing sometimes.. and they are people who like to go you and start the conversation… ‘eh you know…….’ and the person can sit for an hour to give details.. phew..  actually we dont want to know.. sincerely i dont like to listen to rumours or gossip that talk bad about other people.. so what.. i mean..whatever.. du’..what are you going to do about that?.. when we listen to rumours or gossip.. you will somehow have the tendency to know more.. to be curious… jelous.. and for some reason.. you have hatred inside of you…that is bad energy… i assure you .. you will look tired thinking about it..  it will come back to you ..stop spreading rumours or listening to it… it is not necessary true anyway… even media wrote wrongly about celebrities.

I don’t really care if the rumours or gossip about other people..  but if it is concerning my close friends and relatives.. i might dig out more information.. and then get confirmation from the individual concern…because they are people who i cares about.

I guess.. sometimes we dont really know that we were talking about.. its started from a simple chat.. when it comes to different people.. it keep on adding information.. it become bigger and interesting.. and i guess the person who started the whole thing love to have the attention..   if you know somebody who loves doing that.. please let her know that the negatives energy is bad.. and have you ever heard of.. ‘what comes around goes around’?.. it come back to you.. touch wood!.. get the rumours or gossip out of our life… we can at least be truth to the person instead of talking at the person’s back.

She who hold my secrets…

have to keep it to herself..

she asked me if she can let it go..to somebody else..

another ’she’ we trusted..

i knew she can’t keep it.. its too deep..

but i just cant hide from her…

i know she hates me..but loves me at the same time..

she judge me..but hold me because who i am..

we are no more the girls wearing school girl costumes

yet we are still crazy at times..

we are no more girl thingy like hanna montana or raven...

we are more in ‘desperate housewives’..we are women

but we still keep secrets..hard to keep it in the diary sometimes..

need to spill it out..one chapter after another.. we let it out.

I bought a shoe last month.. a full cover shoe .. the time i tried its fit well.. it was size 4.. first time i wear it to the office.. it was ok..then after a few days i feel uncomfortable  its a bit loose.. its kind a weird.. i stop wearing it.

I was thinking to buy another shoe.. the same style..probably next month.. but lucky my friend, ex colleague Helen came to the rescue..hehe.  Helen told me she wanted to meet me.. that was last week.. she gave me my birthday present..awww.. so sweet.. she said she wanted to give me but waiting for the right time.. well it sure was the right time.

Guess what she gave me… of course you have guessed.. a full cover shoe.. POLO..wow..hehe.. thank you len.   I dont know what makes her have the tought of giving me shoe but i am so glad.. it fit well.

Can you imagine if you have a magic shoe…hehe..  you only need one magic shoe.. can change to different style of women shoes.. . that would be one of a kind… for sure ladies will be dying to get that shoe..LOL.  Who knows in the future they might invent a multi style shoes… mmm time will tell.