My daughter is the smartest one.. if she make mistake she will find a way to cover up. I gave them each rm2.00 per day as allowance. The reason is for them to keep at least rm1.00 in their piggy bank for saving, i believing it is a good way to teach them about saving. There will be times that my daughter will not used her money at all and just bring bread to school, so she will have extra money in her saving.
Last night she took out a sticker from her school bag and said to me “look mummy i got sticker, the teacher gave it to me”.. i saw rm2.00 written on the packet and asked again “wow! for what reason”? my daughter said.. “because i did my homework”.. me feeling curious because i never see her doing any homework. I then said to her “you bought this for rm2.00 in the canteen”? she nod yes and no at the same time realizing she was trapped. I told her just to be honest and don’t lie to me, its alright to make mistake then to lie, i saw her face, she look at me with her angry and sad face at the same time and she turn around.. I said to her “I know what you said!, you called me crazy don’t you?’ She was so surprised and asked how am i able to hear her say that… i told her i can read her mind. Well as a matter of fact, she will say ‘you are crazy’ whenever she got angry’, i just tested my instinct. I told i learn how to spot lie.
She asked me over and over again.. “mummy can you really read my mind?”.. every mother can read their child’s mind i told her. We mother have the natural instinct and we know whenever our immediate family lie to us.
And now whenever i asked her to do..but she do it slowly i will say “i can see that you are walking faster a bit.. and you heart say ‘I love my mummy’.. she will walk faster and smile. I know she knew what i was doing but she is just having fun in playing the game.. she also said now ‘I can read your mind’.
Have you realized that once someone who have been in your life passed away, your mind will immediately flash back the memories you have with the person. If you knew that they will be called by God, would you spend more time with the person? Early this year, someone who has been in my childhood memory had passed away and when he was in the hospital he was already unconscious. I asked myself ‘where was I all this time?’ why i did not have a moment to talk or be with him, he was someone in my siblings and my memory childhood.
Recently another relative of ours called to the Lord, she was our grand aunt but we called her ‘mama’, loves by many. When she got sick i managed to visit her a few times and say a prayer for her, even though i just sit and being with her for less than an hour.. i am fully satisfied. I am sad but happy at the same time that she has no more suffering.
Its weird somehow that when somebody is gone.. your memory with the person will be bright in color, as if it was yesterday and if you did not spend enough time with the person, you feel regret and if you does.. you will feel something empty inside of you. The best thing to do to remember them and to fill in your emptiness is by saying this prayer.
Prayer for the Holy Souls in Purgatory
O Lord, who art ever merciful and bounteous with Thy gifts, look down upon the suffering souls in purgatory. Remember not their offenses and negligences, but be mindful of Thy loving mercy, which is from all eternity. Cleanse them of their sins and fulfill their ardent desires that they may be made worthy to behold Thee face to face in Thy glory. May they soon be united with Thee and hear those blessed words which will call them to their heavenly home: “Come, blessed of My Father, take possession of the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world.”
Whatever you call your father, daddy, papa, apa.. he is the man with same responsibility.. to take care and love their children and family unconditionally.
It is going to be Father’s Day soon, what a wonderful day to celebrates your daddy’s love and show him your appreciation. How do you remember your daddy the most? To me, i remember my dad as a fun yet strict person at the same time. I also remember at my teenage time that i become rebel and i hated my daddy, there are things that i don’t understand at that time. Something like.. why can’t he send me to this class or that class.. why can’t he gives me more money and so many things. But as i grow older and working, i realize how difficult life is.
Those days i find it difficult to talk to my daddy and now i know that he loves us but he had problems in showing his love to us. How i now realize that men are all like that.. probably only a few can show their love openly to their children.
My siblings and i are lucky that our daddy don’t smoke, he don’t need don tomas cigars, he never smoke even when he was younger and how coincident my mummy is allergy to smoke.. so i guess they are meant to be together.
Our parents are not here with us, they are doing volunteering service for church. Unable to celebrate father’s day with him, we can only call him. Without him here we still have another daddy to celebrate.. my children’s daddy. Still thinking where and how to celebrate, my girl and i will buy a surprise gift for him.