I am ‘home alone’ and i am in the mood of writing. Few more hours before 2013 come to an end and we eagerly waiting for 2014. What surprise will next year gives us, we plan for the best and aim to get the impossible..’achieve the impossible can be possible’.. ya we all know that.. and i believe we can achieve that with determination and courage.
What do you want? extra money, new career, new style… ? with effort yes.. you can. You can quit your job and start something else.. yes..you can! you plan.. you do something..go crazy, go silly.. be smart.. you can achieve anything you desire …but there few things uncertain.
There is few things uncertain in life and it is impossible to get the answer. We don’t know our fate, or will we succeed in what we want to do and will your dream come true. We can’t be sure of these can’t we.. unless we strike and do our best but there will be chances of risk and failure that need to take into consideration. Despite of the uncertain things, there are also things that certain… we are all going to die.. one day. Its certain we are all going to die.. no matter how..but we don’t know how, why and when.
We thought we understand life but we don’t.. life works in ‘mystery’, sometimes we landed in misery yet sometimes there is magic. If you accept ‘misery’… it will rules you but if you believe in ‘magic’.. either you be the magic to others… life will surprise you with more ‘magical’ experience.
Be prepared for this new year… not to plan but to be surprised, be prepared to love more than to hate, to share more than to accept and prepare your heart to forgive. If you not feeling so well, if you feel sick for the past months or years.. try to forgive someone that you feel you will never forgive in your life… forgive the person the makes your life in ‘misery’ who had make you sick.. give the person magic of forgiveness and may your soul be free, life more meaningful and may you feel the magical works on you.
God bless … Happy New Year 2014!!!!
Only a few days more we will be celebrating a brand new year. I am sure everybody have their own way on how to celebrate the coming year. Celebrate with a party, barbeque, karaoke with friends, make the sound more louder. Making a loud sound, with music, fire crackers, fireworks..to make it fun and great to remember.
We then set a goal for the new year.. a new year resolution. Before you set another resolution, have you ever reflect at what happened within the 12 months before it ended? Have you ever thought of the lesson during the months in that year? We are so eager to accept the brand new year, thinking of what you want, what in store for you. We wish and hoping for the best year, who doesn’t? we all want the best of the brand new year.
I am sure you have listed you new year resolutions. Before you step into the new year, pause, refresh your mind and get backward to January, February and March, what happened during that months, anything special or sad? forward to April, May and June, what have you achieved anything during that months? Now July, August and September, did you do something out from your original plan? October, November and now.. December.. have you achieved your goal or resolutions? Did you managed to pay off your dept, quit smoking or anything new added in your resolutions?
Reflect back to the 12 months, remember what lesson learn from there and what have you share to others. Be thankful of the wonderful 12 months. God gave us chance to discover something in life, to learn and to reflect. Ahead is months, years to celebrate yet we still not sure until when God give us the opportunity to live but yes.. we celebrate whatever we have given and be thankful of chances given.
May you have a good reflection before this year ended.. and may God gives you more years to celebrate!
My children stayed overnight with their grandparents in a big house, bigger than ours of course and more space to play. Since my parents are here, i thought its good to let them enjoy their holiday with their grandparents and forget about school, study, games, tv and just follow their grandparent’s adventure. After first or second night, i have been calling her but she seems so happy, learning new things, new recipe from my mum and my mum even let her wash the dishes. After third to fourth days, she have been calling me and the first time she speak on the phone with soft voice “mum, i misss you”, aaah i almost cry but i just said, only a few days more then she sound happy again. After the fifth day, “mum, i want to go home”, only a few days more i said.. “nooo!!! i want to home..please!!”. Okay, i said, its Saturday, i just finished my paper, you can asked your dad to pick you up after work. “yeaahhh!! ” sound excited and happy.
At home, while studying, i also eager to see her. ‘tuuut tuut’! familiar alarm car.. must be them i said to myself. I hide in one of the room when i heard footstep coming up, the sound of the key, sound of the door… then i heard my daughter “aaaah, home sweet home”! She then say hello to her toys, furniture.. “muuummy, where are you?”.. i can see her eyes shine when we look at each other.. “aaaah i love your smell”, i said. “Oh, this is shampoo, you like it?” the conversation continue, i can’t stop her from talking.. from how his brother don’t want to go home, what they do there and many many more. Ya and she even asked me “so how is your exam”?
We have so many things to talk about, sometimes i threat her like a young lady, so i decided to asked her one important yet silly question. It was the two of us and i asked her, “Chrissa, what if… (still thinking if its necessary to ask the question) and she look at me impatiently. I continue “Chrissa, what if…. i die?” we both look at each other with a long pause and sadness. I asked again “what if.. i die? would you be able to take care of your brother, i know you are his little sister but you the only one who understand him, if i die, would you teach or remind your dad about certain things?” I continue, “if i die, you both stay at mama and bapa (my parents) ok”.
No response from my 7 years old daughter, we just look at each other. I tried hard to control my teary eyes and so does she.. she replied “muuum, you cannot die now, you have to wait until you sick and old, mama will die first”. I explained to her that not everybody will die when they sick and old, sometimes young people also die, probably from sickness, accident or anything that cause heartbeat stop.
The room suddenly in silence.. “aaah! don’t think about it.. don’t talk about it again okay, lets share our dreams and happy story”… its hard to forget what i have asked her and how she react on my question though.
I don’t know but i think somehow it is necessary to ask because life is fragile and we don’t know what will happened. But whatever happened, i know she is a tough girl and my only concern is my son. Aaaah how can i be studid of asking and questioning God’s plan.
God plan for everything, only He knows when we die but i hope and pray my time will come after my children grow up and able to handle their own life… that is my prayer.
God bless all! 🙂