It have been a month doing my routine.. Even though i am beginning to use to this routine but i am still complaining.
Yesterday my son finished school at 1.00pm, i came there late.. stuck in the jam.. worse.. the lady in front of me stop her car..blocking all the cars behind.. i couldn’t move mine..i blocked other cars.. same goes to the rest.
Feeling guilty, i asked the lady if is it ok to leave the car like that.. the answer..’its normal’.. oops..okay.. i imagine having some car hit my bumper just to move it away..
While waiting for my son in the waiting area.. i was worried about my car.. if i have security systems protecting my car..i don’t mind.
Today i want to go a bit early to get a good place to park.. i don’t want to feel guilty and selfish.
When you know you are wrong, you will feel guilty and imagine how many curses you will get..your choice.
I love this new product from tupperware.. the Jellete Set.. very nice.. i love the colors. Can’t wait to get it.. my daughter have been asking me to buy jelly from the shop.. mmm its not clean ..don’t know they use furnace filter or not… i want to give her healthy food.. fruits jelly maybe…still searching for a nice recipe.
I have been feeling stress lately, i get irritate easily, anger come from no way..headache..and feeling nausea… haiya what happen to me.. sometimes i can’t help it.. yelling without reason, looking for small things to quarrel with my hubby and my kids.. can’t help it..
Worse.. i even feel like crying.. i become so sensitive and emotional..yes again..without no reason.. I thought maybe because i’m exhausted.. and my house is in the mess. Feeling tired.. lack of energy.. grrr.. God help me!…
Wait a minute.. i have experience this before.. when?.. during my early pregnancy.. oh no.. am i pregnant?.. I love to have additional in my family..but not at this moment.. i don’t want to take pregnancy vitamins, the morning sickness.. oh..not now please.
Then again.. i have experience similar to this.. before my menses.. exactly.. it is my PMS.. it is my premenstrual syndrome.. I guess i need to record this syndrome every month.. because it keep changing every month.. it will be easier for me to understand myself.
Lucky i have a husband who understand, i told him..that i cannot control myself.. especially being emotional and feeling tired.
Last night he took over few of my chores.. i didn’t take my dinner.. i went to sleep early.. but i had to wake up a bit early this morning to prepare my son’s school books according today’s time table.
Sometimes we don’t understand ourselves.. what happening.. it is important to let our spouse know what is going on… so it will be easier for him and yourself to handle the situation.
I learn that miscommunication can lead to quarrel .. to avoid it..a proper explanation on a situation will be a good help.
Cooperation and good communication between husband and wife will make life easier.