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You may say… what kind of power am i talking about.. its not about power of magic or your power you have to control your office… I am talking about your inner power.. how you control yourself and others or situation for some reason.

For me, there is no real power without spiritual power. A power that comes from the core of who you are and reflects all that you were meant to be. A power that’s connected to the source of things. When you see this kind of power shining through someone in all its truth and certainty, it’s irresistible, inspiring, elevating. I can feel it in myself sometimes, mostly when I’m sharing an insight that I know will have an impact on someone’s life and I can see that they “get it.” I get real joy from helping other people experience aha moments. That is where my power lies.

I know for sure that in every challenging experience there’s an opportunity to grow, enhance your life, or learn something invaluable about yourself. Every challenge can make you stronger if you allow it. Strength multiplied = power. – OPRAH

Power is something in you… you rule your own mind and thought… you know how to handle situation and people no matter how difficult it is.  There are times we feel so down and lonely.. but if you can control your mind you will be able to think differently and positively.

I need to get positive energy and gain power to control my diet.. haha.. i love my body.. and i think my weight are good enough but well… i need to burn fat especially tummy…i am soo out of shape..  I am exercising 30 minute a day.. that is my will power.

17 August 2009 my marriage will be 7th years!.. we are blessed with a son and a daughter… not sure if we will have family addition in the future… time will tell.. as for now … two are just nice.

I am not sure how we want to celebrate our wedding anniversary next week.. either dinner ..only me and husband..or the whole family.. still thinking… but we will celebrate for sure… just a simple dinner will do.

Another 3 years it will be our 10th Anniversary..  i am dreaming of orlando vacations with my family… i wish..i hope..i pray.. it will come true.

I just pray everyday that good Lord always be the third person in our marriage and in our family.. there always be temptation .. always looking for something missing… well nobody is perfect but we try to be the best.

In fairy tales.. when two person in love..got married.. it will be.. ‘happily ever after’…but in reality it will be… ‘learning ever after’.

I bought a shoe last month.. a full cover shoe .. the time i tried its fit well.. it was size 4.. first time i wear it to the office.. it was ok..then after a few days i feel uncomfortable  its a bit loose.. its kind a weird.. i stop wearing it.

I was thinking to buy another shoe.. the same style..probably next month.. but lucky my friend, ex colleague Helen came to the rescue..hehe.  Helen told me she wanted to meet me.. that was last week.. she gave me my birthday present..awww.. so sweet.. she said she wanted to give me but waiting for the right time.. well it sure was the right time.

Guess what she gave me… of course you have guessed.. a full cover shoe.. POLO..wow..hehe.. thank you len.   I dont know what makes her have the tought of giving me shoe but i am so glad.. it fit well.

Can you imagine if you have a magic shoe…hehe..  you only need one magic shoe.. can change to different style of women shoes.. . that would be one of a kind… for sure ladies will be dying to get that shoe..LOL.  Who knows in the future they might invent a multi style shoes… mmm time will tell.

Continuation from my previous post.. things were not missing but misplaced.. i hate that.. wasting time and energy.

I guess it is high time to do spring clean.. moreover its 4 months before end of the year…what..? oh ya.. its 4 months to go.. wow…  I have been keeping junk here and there.. old bills.. unwanted documents, oh.. i need NJ junk removal to get rid of all these.

I am thinking on when should i do this.. i want to have my maid of course but without my children.. mmm have to think who can baby sit them for a day… it would be easier without children at home.  I don’t want them to get dust.. and need to concentrate on cleaning anyway.

Spring cleaning once a year.. not only the house.. but also getting rid of unwanted clothes.. mmm.. i’m thinking of the right time of spring cleaning… hopefully cleaning the house.. will get good feng shui..hehe.

I thought i was being forgetful lately… its just few things are missing or not in the correct place at home.

I have been focusing and thinking where i put things especially my expensive mellilea mosturizer which i never used.   I asked my maid to check for it.. i even describe how it look  like..  she said she didn’t see it… i did not accused her but for sure.. she might have kept it somewhere.

Yesterday my husband asked me about my batik which i bought from a friend from Trengganu, i was searching for it.. i remember where i put it.. it was near the tv cabinet.. but it wasn’t there anymore… dissatisfied i check in the wardrobe and yet it was there… nicely fold.

So today, i wanted to keep things in a paper bag.. i found a paper bag.. took out the things inside.. and guess what.. i found my mellilea mosturizer .. can’t wait to use it tomorrow.. my nivea mosturizer had finished.  I dont know why on earth she kept it in the paper bag.. haiya..sigh..

I  guess its time for me to teach her the 5S concept… I need to get ride of few things, clear it, decide what i want to keep and what to throw.. how and where to keep it to make it easier for everybody to find it..  if i have too.. i will label it.. haha.. or put sign on it.. even exit signs, kitchen…haha..no lah..thats too silly and look  funny.

This is what i dont like if somebody mess with my things.. i mean.. i know she is doing her job..but i hope she know and remember what and where she keep my things.  I hope thats the end of my missing things…lucky i found it.

Wow… i can’t believe it.. its August.. soon its going to be fasting month for our muslim friends…another 3 months to Christmas.

Few of my colleagues are in KL attending course .. well for sure they choose to go in August.. it is indeed the mega sale all over Malaysia.. but KL is the best place for shopping when you are there at the right time and place.

I usually pick August to back to KL but this year we went back early.. hopefully next year we will go back in August… Sean will be in primary one next year.. so have to wait for school holiday.

All my siblings will be celebrating their birthday in August.. my brother in 14, my elder sister in 29 and my younger sister in 31st August.  Its all happening in August.. how sweet.. missing them so much.

Nobody like to do mistakes.. especially stupid and unacceptable mistakes… but i guess sometimes we can’t help it.. nobody is perfect but if possible we try to avoid it.

This happened few weeks ago, when my colleague had a visit by an officer from a Ministry who wanted to attend a meeting.  The problem is.. there were no meeting on that day, the poor guy had to call his office and unfortunately his secretary and clerk were out… he managed to get somebody in their office to confirm to him what was written on his notice board … it read ‘jangan lupa besok meeting …..at… date….’ unsatisfied.. he wanted to see the notice of meeting.. need to find out who signed it… they got the notice of meeting….. yes the date of meeting yet on that day.. but it noted Tuesday.. but it was Wednesday that day… i already know where its going…  They then check who signed the notice of meeting… the officer who signed it was no longer in that department.. can you guess what happened?

The poor officer.. asked the person from his office to check date of the notice of meeting…  teng teng teng.. same date but it was 2008.. dear oh dear..  how could the secretary didn’t marked it for filing or file it away.

I don’t know what will the secretary do if she find out what happened… she might take Slendeslim to make her unconcious for few days…LOL.. and i wonder what the officer will do to her…ooops…thats hurt.

The important thing to do when we are at work is Focus, Concentration, Dedication…and might need training or attend course to upgrade our skill.

Anyway nobody wants mistakes.. touch wood! touch wood!

Having no boss for three months… giving me the opportunity to attend in-house training and seminar without worrying who’s  going to replace me while i’m away.

During that period i attended 2 days in-house workshop  on emotional intelligence (EQ) in Leadership  in May, that would be my first in-house workshop since i transferred there.. its like an introduction for me to other staffs.. able to cooperate with them and worked as a team… its was interesting.

Last month, me and other Personal Assistants  attended Motivation for PAs/Secretaries/Admins using NLP Method in Hyatt.  I have seen book about NLP but dont really know what it was.. until that day.  NLP – Neuro Linguistic Programming is an extremely powerful concept.  It  contain the most accessible, positive and useful aspects of modern psychology, and so can be helpful in virtually every aspect of personal and inter-personal relations. NLP has many beneficial uses for self-development, and for businesses and organizations; for example NLP enables better communications in customer service, and all types of selling.  NLP enables better awareness and control of oneself, better appreciation of the other person’s feelings and behavioural style, which in turn enables better empathy and cooperation.

I find NLP very interesting.. and i am reading, surfing and learning slowly about this.. .i just want to learn the basic and practic the theory.  A person who master NLP skill or method can actually loss weight without taking any best weight loss pill, how you may ask? just using their mind… the mind body connection… using NLP method..you are able to delete or erase the memory that haunted you for years.. using mind.  Its kind of weird and sometimes it sound like psycic but actually its mind control.. if you never heard about this..join me seach the answer or better still if you have the money.. get a practioner to coach you.

One day.. i will master this NLP and be a certified NLP coach.. its not only benefit myself in terms of career, financial but also will help me to help others..that is my dream… i will achieve this goal.

You came the time i was weak… you give me strength to carry on..

I feel down.. you lift my spirit up.. and make me feel so good..

I feel empty inside.. you fill me with love..

At time.. having you.. i was on cloud nine.. so top of the world..

But we both know it will lead to no where.. and it is impossible..

yet we feel we wanted more…and more of each other..

I feel wonderful, happy and guilt…its all mix up.. and its not right..

We step out for a while.. and i feel empty again…

Then you decided.. we stop!.. not even a glance..

We walk separate way…different path in life.. as how it use to be..

You made me walked..yet you let me fall..

I managed to stand again.. and walk..

but i will never run.. run away from life…

this is my experience…i am responsible..

its hurts, its hurts yet its wonderful..

You took pieces of me…

that is why i feel so empty.. but i will fill it with what i have…

there are loves around me.. that always want me more..

goodbye now… i let you go..

i let you go today.. and won’t be seeing you again..

What a dream i had.. . it was nice and it was scary.. i rather dream of having a bungalow.. i need an  Outer Banks homes to achieve and make my dream come true.