BEAUTIZA

Sometimes we stuck in our daily routine.. weekdays working, weekend busy at home… our husband, children seems don’t get enough of us…hahaha.  Well that’s how it suppose to be.. they need us and we care for them… but for some reason we need to have our own space.

You have been a great mother and wife … but don’t forget to take care yourself.. your health, your appearance… the woman in you.    Life is short .. and you never know when it end.. get wild once in a while.. and get back on track.. experience challenge.. and fight back.. you will know the reason for living!  Get control of your life… we get emotional when we feel hurt or feel unappreciated but we have to be positive in life.. you don’t need Morristown personal injury lawyer to tell you what to do…do something that will make you happy or feel good.

Go out from your cocoon… and be a butterfly… go trim your eyebrow, curl your eyelashes, change your hairstyle..make sure it suits you, wear that sexy dress… be beautiful.. feel beautiful..look good and you will feel good!

Have you ever…questions God existence?

Have you ever… wanted to experience things that you know is wrong?

Have you ever…pray for God to help you but actually you did not help yourself?

Have you ever …  blame God for what happened but forget to thank Him for what you have?

Have you ever.. search for love high and low…without realizing that loves surround you?

Have you ever…thought God did not answer your prayer but actually he did?

This reminds me of the car accident in the past, the first accident i had when i was with my friends, we were heading home from participating treasure hunt Sutera Harbour, i stopped at the traffic light when it happened.. the guy was drunk but we don’t need Pleasanton motorcycle accident attorney to settle that matter… but at that time.. i had so many questions to God.. why it happened? then i rea

We are living in reality… sometimes we  imagine too much… we get confuse.  We like to daydream, just like imagining, we  control what we wants, for our needs and feelings.  Nothing seems enough for us, what we cannot get in reality, we imagine… we created in our minds but sometimes it become reality.

We wanted more, in our personal development and career wise, we want to achieve a goal in our life.  But I am feeling bored lately, i have no interest in doing my work…don’t ask me why…, i don’t have any idea to write in my blog.. , i have not done any sketching/designing for so long, my hand and brain could not connect the ideas… i don’t want to give up.. i need something to get be back where it belong.

I need more than LCD HDTV , what i need is Self Actualization, that’s what Abraham Maslow said.

When all of the foregoing needs are satisfied, then and only then are the needs for self-actualization activated. Maslow describes self-actualization as a person’s need to be and do that which the person was “born to do.” “A musician must make music, an artist must paint, and a poet must write.” These needs make themselves felt in signs of restlessness. The person feels on edge, tense, lacking something, in short, restless. If a person is hungry, unsafe, not loved or accepted, or lacking self-esteem, it is very easy to know what the person is restless about. It is not always clear what a person wants when there is a need for self-actualization.

I guess i need to wake up, and seek what i wanted in life… in reality.. sometimes we have to stop pretending and follow our dream.

I had a camera but decided to buy a digital camera because its convenience, no need film and its easy to upload in the computer..especially for my blog…so when i bought my digital camera.. i got so excited.. haha… i keep on reading the manual, studying on the camera..and even checked in the website on the technique of taking pics, its quite interesting.

I have downloaded pics and video in my laptop, i need to print out others before its gone… I need to buy bigger memory card no need to worry about the capacity and a micro sd for upgrading.

I am trying to take as many picture as i can.. especially scenery.. i am not a pro but trying my best to do the best… Beautiza will keep on taking pics…and upload in the blog.. so watch out.. i will keep the camera with me everywhere i go… you might be in my blog!!

My son have been controlling the use of the laptop.. he wants to play game.. he will only give her sister chance to play when he is in a good mood.. but not for long.

So today, Chrissa asked for computer game… without his brother at home.. this is the only chance she have.. lol.. i let her play the sesame street..eventhough she wanted the game his brother use to play.  She wanted to watch the ‘tinkerbell‘ online..but it is too slow.. i need to upgrade this computer memory then i guess its possible to watch online.  She is progressing on her motor skill especially handling the mouse, it will be easier for her especially on games.

I need to take back my other laptop… so there will be no fighting between my two kids over a computer.  What i need is a time table, what time they can play and what type of games they can play.   I need to be strict on time and that is the hardest part.

I remember once i can’t decide whether to buy oven or microwave.. well.. i just that in my thought for a while.. now i am thinking of buying a steamer…lol.

Haiya so many things i need now.. but the most important thing is to paint my kid’s room..its is now have interesting colour.. green and yellow and with addition of my kid’s sketch, showing their creativity.. i mean its okay..but too much..and it looks dirty… mmm thinking what colour suit their room.  My Handy Manny will find his time to do the painting…hehe.. for sure.

Need to re-decorate my room, update my wardrobe.. get rid of that unwanted clothes, need to buy another cabinet for my books/files.., new cushion covers.. haiya..so many oh.

Oh ya.. apart from all the above what i really need is the home alarm systems … that is the important thing i need now.. in case.. touch wood!  after a few incident last year that happened at my neighbor in the ground floor and another at the other block.. i guess need to start do my survey.

Recognize this young lady? .. well this pretty lady is Rose Indus, my mummy..hehe.. so proud to be her daughter… and next to her is her grand auntie.. her grandfather’s sister.. i hope i am giving the right information…lol.

Thanks to Facebook, i managed to get in touch with my pretty auntie Anita… che..my mummy’s 2nd cousin… nice of her to post this picture, i saw this picture in her album but didn’t realized it until i was tagged.

The picture was taken in the 60s.. i guess.. i wonder what diet pills that work those days.  My mummy saw this picture last night.. she was so happy ..maybe it reminds her of those days… she will be 56 years old this year and still looking great.

It is a public holiday alright… my children went for a sleep over at their grandparent’s house yesterday.  It is so boring without kids around…. i miss them already.. but they want to be with their cousins and its a school holiday anyway…. i will get them tomorrow after church.

This morning, me and hubby went for breakfast.. after that he went to work and guess what.. i went to the salon…my face deserved a nice treat..lol.. my skin longing for that facial touch… and trimmed the bushy eyebrow..  ouch! ouch!.

I am home alone.. trying to update blog and blog hop.. while listening to yahoo radio.…country song.. im loving it.  I don’t even want to feel of doing anything else.. i dont even want to cook… i will wait for my husband and go for dinner later…  but i need to go to the car wash lah.. car need a bath..hehe..

Today is my holiday… i take it as a reward for myself..  it is my golden opportunity to be at home just by myself… this is what you called..Freedom!!

I wanted to post about this but i was having problem loading the pictures…. even though its few days late but love to share it with you guys.  On Monday, we went to Lok Kawi Wildlife Park (or Lokkawi Zoo) which is located at old Penampang-Papar road, about 15km from Kota Kinabalu city.  It open daily from 9.30 am-5.30 pm.. its a nice place to visit with family especially during school holiday or weekend.

We arrived at 10.30 am.. my family plus my nephew Gerard.. kids got so excited.. picture taken .. beginning of our journey.. chrissa still have time to give her best pose.

Admiring the elephants.. there were playing while bathing .. so cute.. i caught it in my video camera.. other visitors also using their camcorders to capture the moment.

There are so many to see..the Borneo and Malaysia wild animals such as orang utan, proboscis monkey, Asian elephant, rhino, hornbill birds, tiger, etc.

I only managed to upload a few pics of the animals…

Almost at the end of the journey, Sean keep going strong..checking on the map..on what animal to see next.. while Chrissa can’t go on.. ‘mummy, i want susu’.. hehe.. she got so tired..she can’t walk..and neither do i.. too heavy to carry her.   We were there for 2 hours i guess and I just realized that we didn’t take photo of my husband aka the cameraman.. too busy taking others.. but i got him in the video but problem downloading.

Anyway, it was a nice, interesting, informative, tiring trip.. we were exhausted.. reaching home..clean up..everybody..sleep like a baby.

Last Sunday, i went to Church in the evening at St. Simon Church Likas.. only me and my daughter, Chrissa.  She was behaving very good in church, i guess because she dont have her brother to play with.. but i know she was bored.. she told me ‘mummy we are in church already, can go home oledy kan’… well luckily … she have been a good girl.. thanks god for that.

Anyway, i think that Sunday without interruption, i can really concentrate on the reading.. but the 2nd reading really touched my heart.. the person who read it.. has delivered it as how it wants to be heard.

I told my friend in FB about the reading and i never thought he typed everything.. thanks George..so nice of you… so i would invite you to read and think…

Please let me share with you the reading, taken from Galatians 5: 16 - 25

But I say, walk by the Spirit, and do not gratify the desires of the flesh. For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh; for these are opposed to each other, to prevent you from doing what you would. But if you are led by the Spirit you are not under the law. Now the works of the flesh are plain: fornication, impurity, licentiousness, idolatry, sorcery, enmity, strife, jealousy, anger, selfishness, dissension, party spirit, envy, drunkenness, carousing, and the like. I warn you, as I warned you before, that those who do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God. But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such there is no law. And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. If we live by the Spirit, let us also walk by the Spirit. - Galatians 5: 16 - 25

This is the word of the Lord!